Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Where the snowflakes were still, but I was floating up...

Laughing, burning heat, and you can't see farther than five feet in front of you because the white metal sun has lit up on everyone's head, where each hair is a wick and every wick has caught fire in a tiny explosion of light, and you shut your eyes, and people are a talking, laughing, gently undulating sea of blue shoes and brown umbrellas and white noise around you, and then suddenly, without warning, the noise is gone and you're all alone in a vacuum, and the happy, oblivious world does not even notice. One moment of isolation so complete it feels like you're drowning, and your mouth, your throat, your nostrils are filling with loneliness so fast that you can do nothing, and all that there is the world, in your head, in the universe, is you.

And in that one moment if you realize that you like yourself, you know that you will be safe anywhere.

5 comments:

Divya said...

Reminded of the line "emptiness of filling me to the point of agony" from the song Fade to Black.


It's happened to me without the last line. It's not a nice feeling, that one. And absolutely, you like yourself, you don't care who the fuck likes you or not.

another brick in the wall said...

that's by far one of the longest statement i've ever read [first one].. and that's the first serious post i'm reading on your blog gurl!

i like :)

and as my ahem.. philosophy goes [what? everyone has their philosophy towards life man.. i also think at times.. i swear [stop laughing]].. one can only love oneself.. and one only needs oneself.. in the words of virus.. apna haath jaganath.. not so inappropriate too :P

Mudra said...

:)

As the Mind Meanders said...

Beautifully written...

Divs said...

@one long rant - nice post :)
@suk - jaganath!! imagine a guy who has that name.. lol!! :P i can't stop laughing at the apna hath jaganath re!!